The stretch position asks for my arm to rest on my leg, but my thighs are too thick to push it down properly. I really need to work on this. Pigeon pose on the left side. Wait, is this actually left?
I keep getting confused trying to flip the camera. Okay, I think I’ve got it now. Left. Like this?
That feels good. Pigeon pose. You know, pigeon actually tastes pretty good. They eat pigeon in Macau.
When I can’t get duck, it’s a solid choice, though it’s a little bony. I used to eat pigeon with my dad all the time. It’s like a cheaper version of a Cornish hen, if you’re British. My mom makes a mean Cornish hen, though.
I don’t know why. They say you inherit talents and intelligence from your mother, but she’s really good at cooking and I’m just not. Maybe I can work on it. I’ve already had ten years of cooking lessons under my belt.
Oh, this is really hitting my hip flexor. Half split next. I don’t know if I can do it. When I was in LA, I worked out consistently and could do a full split.
But right now? I can’t say that for sure. Gogin thought his body was essentially—what? I weighed five hundred pounds once.
Same weight as a horse. Sad girl jams. Blinky, you came back. How’s the coffee?
Coffee. You and me. Aw, people are making friends in chat. Come by, come by.
Left split. Horses on average weigh around five hundred to eight hundred pounds, at least. Some chunky boys weigh even more. Half split on the right.
Oh my gosh, I’m going to die. These hips aren’t made like they used to be. He said I have to pull it up there. He told me I was really lucky I didn’t need surgery.
Because the way things were going, surgery seemed certain. Pigeon on the right. It’s so tight. Wait, like this?
Hopefully I’m doing the same side. I used to be super obsessed with my weight. Honestly, now I focus more on my well-being and how I feel. Eventually the results come with that.
I try to eat well, treat my mind well, spread good energy, and usually my body ends up the way I want it to. Pigeon thighs. Painful. Pretzel.
What the heck is a pretzel? This looks crazy. Okay, wait. Yeah, activity is good.
Whatever activity you can manage. Now that my dad’s done with brain surgery, we mostly push him in a wheelchair. But he walks the hallway as best as he can. My mom holds him, too.
You know how I learned my determination and to never give up? That’s mostly from my dad. Even though he has glioblastoma, one of the toughest cancers out there, he says, “I’m going to recover. I’m going to recover.
I’m going to do amazing. I’m going to do the best I can to get healthy. ” And my love for my family? Who I am is because of what he taught me.
He taught me to never give up, to try your best, and to never give in. I’ll be real. Sometimes I get sad. Sometimes I get depressed.
But I never let that overrule me when I have goals and things I want to achieve in life. I’m not exactly where I want to be, but that’s why I push myself to work even harder. And if I can inspire you guys to do the same, no matter what your goals are, that makes me really happy. I want to live my life in his honor.
Live my own life, but also live for him. He’s an amazing dad. He’s going through a lot right now, but you guys met him during the New Year’s stream. He was really cute.
We were dancing together. Once he gets better and we reach a thousand cranes, if he’s okay with it, I’ll give him the cranes you guys folded. I’ll print out pictures of the cranes you made and post them in his room alongside the ones I’ve folded. So let’s work together.
I’ll do my best to fold close to a thousand, and maybe you can help me too. My dad’s got his hands full, so I don’t know. But yes. My mom’s amazing too, don’t get me wrong.
When it comes to determination to be physically fit, that’s definitely from my dad. My mom was a ballerina, but I low-key failed ballet. Sad. They said my body type wasn’t right.
I’m not thin and narrow. I’m curvy. Even though I’m small, my body goes like this. So they told me, “If you want to succeed in ballet, you’re going to have to work twenty times harder.
” And the one time my mom brought me to her Russian ballet teacher, the teacher just said, “Nah. This girl isn’t cut out for it. ”
But look, when one door closes, another door opens. Hopefully it’s not a window.
That’s what my grandma used to say. I always responded, “What if it’s a window and there’s a fire? Do you just jump out? ” Or does someone push you out, and it’s defenestration?
Fenêtre means window in French. In medieval times, apparently if people were sick of you, they’d just push you out a window. Think it’s bad when someone in your friend group ices you out? Try medieval times.
They’d just say, “Yeah, I’m done with Lu Ann. Going to push them out the window. ” Low-key. Like in Assassin’s Creed.
Oh, women are supposed to have curves. Yeah, but for ballet it helps to be super narrow. The past year is definitely a testament. Honestly, it’s not just that.
It’s because of you. Without you, I would have broken down a long time ago. Part of it is your own self-motivation, your own determination, your own courage, and what you learn throughout life. But it’s also the community you keep around you.
I hope you guys find positive vibes in this community, and I’ll support you as best I can. I don’t know how far this channel will grow. Maybe there’ll come a point where I can address each person individually. But know that my heart and thoughts and wishes for you are that you succeed in whatever you do.
For the people here, I’m still a little horsey. Thank you. Not me throwing the horsey to the ground. Okay, let me just—that aside was me trying to avoid stretching.
Just kidding. I’m going to try to stretch more. This is called pretzel. Do you like pretzels?
Like Auntie Anne’s? I’ll be real: my dad isn’t perfect either. But it’s important to appreciate the people in your life. Daily dose of positivity.
Would you guys want to watch me play Pocopia? Or would you prefer shorts of me playing it? I want to get into gaming streaming more. I want to play Resident Evil Requiem.
I want to play Silent Hill Elf. But I don’t have the stamina yet. Oh, that’s not important. Assuming everything goes well, my dad still wants to send me to horse camp in France for spring break.
Maybe I’ll go to Le Mans. I’m really lucky because I don’t have to pay for accommodation when I live in France. I basically just work. I stream for you guys late at night, but during the day I clean up after the horses.
I’m basically a groom. A groom is like a horse nanny. I prepare the horses for all the ones coming to the Philippines. Last year they brought in a few ponies that I took care of.
One was named Mississippi, an Irish cob, black and white. She looked like a cow. Honestly, she was actually colored like a cow. No offense to her.
The other one, Edelweiss, was named after the flower that’s really popular in Austria. Edelweiss, edelweiss, you look happy to meet me. I defenestrated my horse. That’s a window.
Watch out. She got violent. Watch out. Anyway, my grandma and my mom are big into Auntie Anne’s.
This makes me miss working out. Honestly, go for it. I’m very inspired by my friend Breya and the Ma Vie GX community. I want to make sure you guys hit your fitness goals, whatever those may be.
Whether that’s just walking more every day, standing up more, or being a runner. We have one person who’s like—well, someone who’s really committed. That kind of dedication stays with me. I think about my dad walking that hospital hallway, my mom holding him steady, and I remember that strength is built slowly, in pieces, one stretch at a time.
Some days I’m sore. Some days I’m tired. But I keep showing up. That’s the part that matters.
So here I am, folded into another pose, talking to all of you, trying to get a little better than yesterday. And if you’re out there working on your own goals, I hope you keep showing up too. We’re all just trying to be a little less afraid, a little more determined, and a little more like the people we admire. My dad’s fighting the toughest fight there is, and he still smiles.
He still says he’s going to recover. If he can hold onto that, I can hold onto my dreams too. And I’ll keep folding those cranes with you until we reach a thousand.
